Delay in our Plans

Well, Drew and I have decided mutually to put our wedding plans on hold. I dont know how long but I do know they are on hold. It hurts because I really wanted to be his bride sooner then later. But it was a decision that we had to make. I live in Florida and he lives in Maryland so living like this isnt hurry up the process at all. So now we are waiting until I can get a job somewhere anywhere at this point, and we can both establish ourselves. We each know that we are going to get married but its just a matter of when now!

But like I said I am hurt I really did want to be married. I really feel that by being married I will really and truely become my true self not only really become who I am but I want to do it with a husband so we can grow together. But that isnt what Drew thinks. I am just confused and basically helpless. I want to plan this wedding and get things moving but I really dont forsee that happening within the next 2 years. I just dont know!

We are going to evaluate our relationship in 6 to 8 months and see where we are then. That is around Christmas 04 and if our  feelings are still the same and our relationship is good then we can really sit down and talk marriage. But until we are just going to live life to the fullest and be together and thats it. I am going to focus on becoming a Hair Stylist and getting that going and then getting into a career and Drew is going to focus on finishing his Computer Certification Degree and get established into that.

But thats all for now,

~Jenn

Drew,
I know you are reading this! I know you are thinking "Jenn, I told you not to say anything" and you did anyway. But I didnt give a date or anything so you cannot be mad. But I wanted to say that I understand why we are waiting and I think it will make our marriage better in the long run and we will be happier beings that we will be established...So dont get me wrong I understand!

I Love you Baby,
Your lil Nifer